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Long Time No Update


Just realized that it has been almost a year since I update this blog (proper).

Don’t know the reason why, but there is no urge to post every little things in my life onto the blog anymore. Perhaps due to the nature of what I am doing now, perhaps due to *age* (ha!), perhaps many other reasons that I wish to keep myself more private. (Afterall, I am half a *public figure*! Still getting used to *strangers* calling my name when I am out on the street, scratching my nose)

Life has been stable  for myself, although there is occasionally *emo* period (guys also can have PMS one, alright, except that I will *lao sai* all along long for couple of days during that period :P ). As I am double hatting in serveral roles, I have a tendency to work all day long, even the weekends. Busy, but fulfilling I guess. (Well, I need to work harder to go for my holidays!)

Writer’s block le.. Dunno what to write.

Just a Reflection (aka Random Thoughts)

Sitting at the canteen of a polytechnic this morning, while passing my time away, something dwell upon me.


Yes, it may not be a surprise news to  you,  and me, but yeah, finally,  it seems that this fact has dwell upon me when I am here.

Yes, that’s about it. Maybe this is what will happen when you are in a environment where a lot of people around you are so young and vibrant.

Awaiting the day when I am ’19′ again. Ha.

Last Entry

This could be the last blog entry in

4 years, 8 months and 26 days (28 April 2003) since my first ‘recorded’ entry (My first entry is far far earlier than this, say 2001, but I had lost the record), this blog, is, and could be going to the end.

Before you guys go into a panic and start asking me what’s wrong or anything bad happened, don’t worry, I am fine.

This decision, is purely a commercial reason.

Frankly speaking, a huge part of me doesn’t want this blog to go. This blog, has been accompanying me over these few years, watched me smile, cry and grow up. Memories recorded and archived at

I am trying to find a suitable new home for this blog. Afterall, I can’t just ‘delete’ almost 5 years worth of memories, right?

Will keep you guys updated.

MAJOR revamp

Went home at 3.00am last night.

Nope, I did not went to chiong. In fact, I wasn’t at home for the past 35 hours. Nope, I am not an angst-filled teenager who were running away from home. I was just engaged in some work .

And it set me thinking. What I had done for the past 18 months, which could be valuable archive for me, wasn’t documented! I had missed out on so much.

In addition, Cobalt Paladin gave me the additional inspiration and motivation. His entries, as an entrepreneur is an excellent journal documenting his journey to his success in his business. It also serves as a think aloud platform for him to reflect and look back on what he has done.

Therefore, why can’t I do that too?

Sooooooooo, as the entry title suggested, I would be going for a MAJOR revamp in this blog. Not just the entries, which I always had struggled to fill in, especially I do not have much of a social life. But the content. Content of my entrepreneur road trip with a couple of my buddies, content of my complains hee hee, contents of lessons learnt along the way.

Will start off with some archive lessons learnt from my previous foray. Stay tuned.

Random Pictures Series #2: Uniquely Singapore – ‘Chomping Seats’


Not really random picture series, but an excuse to kick start my random picture series.
As what the chinese idioms says, 百闻不如一见, this shot was taken from Lau Pa Sat (Tanjung Pagar, Shenton Way, Central Business District, Singapore Financial District ) when Xuehui and I went to meet Dave for lunch. (Getting my WorldCard for my “MIA-ing” by the way from Yvonne)

It’s so true! You see galores of tissue paper everywhere!  And I thought only ladies does that! Men do that too! OMG!

Seeing the scene yesterday, gave me an inspiration…. Ha ha… shall reveal soon when the time is right.

“When things change, people change…”

“When things change, people change, it doesn’t mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply mean that you move on, and treasure all the memories”

This has been the most dramatic weekend I had. Dealt with living people and dead people. Yes, this may be the darkest entry in my blog you have ever seen so far.

“As you get older, you start attending lesser birthdays and more funeral”
My aunt passed away over the weekend. After a 10 years fight with the big C. I used to see TV programs mentioning that the big C is the No 1 killer in Singapore, and I always feel so disassociated with it. Now I feel the impact.

I am a bad nephew. I got jealous of her when my mum cooked her favourite food over the weekends for the past few years, I complained why my mum go there so often, I have been bad to my cousin, I quarreled with her …. I am bad. Now I know. How can I repay what she had done for me with what I had did? I resist looking at her for the first few days. Cos I know I will cry. But eventually, I did. I cried. And I cried and cried. In fact, I am crying as I am writing this blog. I thought that everything will be over after the funeral today. But obviously, it don’t. Life will not be the same anymore… Reunion dinner and New Year will be very very different… Who is the person I saw in the coffin? Is she really my aunt?… I remember my aunt as the one I saw during our reunion dinner. How she argued with my uncle about SMU vs NUS. I know she will looked at things differently. She had been a lot of support for me before her health detoriated. I still remember that photo, where my uncle and her carried me during their wedding night. I still don’t acknowledge who I saw in the coffin. I still don’t believe it’s her. I hope that what happened is really a bad nightmare. Yes, it’s cliche, but yup….

Uncle, I want to tell you this, but I don’t have the courage to do so… I will be a good nephew now, helping you to take care of your kids, be the big brother for them… … You have aged a lot during these few days, and I knew about how you suffered for these past few years. I will be here to help you lighten your burden… …

Now… about my dealings with the living…

well.. suddenly, it just don’t feel as important anymore. Whatever they say. Whatever they commented. Whatever they do. If they think whatever they do or say will satisfy them or feel good, so be it. It’s your choice.

“As we walk thru the friendship, there’ll be times you wouldn’t see me beside you. Don’t think I left you alone. I just choose to walk behind so I can hold you if you fall”

Before I sign off, something for the someone special in my life
“If I have a choice to choose what I’ll be in my next life, I’ll choose to be a tear, so that I can born in your eyes, live on your cheeks and die on your lips.”

25 may 2005 2338hrs